Heyyyy~
I don't know how many people out there are wondering where I've gone off to or if I had disappeared.
It's been forever since I've posted something. Still, felt like I should put myself out there at least once in a while so I don't get sucked into the void of the internet too much.
I've been doing fine, mostly worrying about job opportunities. Which I'm happy to say I'm getting an interview at the very least! We'll see where that goes, but I'm crossing my fingers all works out well! If not, then it's back to the grind, lol. I'm gonna keep putting in apps for pharmacy tech stuff and studying up for the exam.
It's obvious things haven't been ok in the world and that's kind of been adding up to me distancing myself from the internet. Probably just me trying to cope with everything and just not bothering being social or talking about stuff online. Having a blog has been nice in that aspect, though I'm trying to dip back into stuff like Bluesky and Spacehey.
I'm kind of antsy to get myself moved out of my parents house. While it's nothing to be ashamed of in this day and age, I'm not on best terms with my folks. I won't get into the nitty gritty, it's nothing to sound alarms about because they've been so generous with me, but in some ways I do feel stifled being here. I'm kind of hoping that once I get the job I want that I'll be ready to move out of here and hopefully somewhere where I can feel free.
Though with things in America looking how they are now and the absolute clown show that it's been... I'm not too sure about things.
I suppose I should keep telling myself things will get better, there must be some other way for me to find happiness. And that's kind of what's kept me going even with how easily I break at stress and conflict. I definitely think I have never gotten out of depression since I was a kid - and that might be a little pretentious of me to say. But I guess I've found joy in the happy phases that I have been through. And I know there will be another happy moment waiting for me somewhere.
Not like I'm saying there's some divine fate in the world guiding me along - I'm starting to give up in thinking that there's any sort of higher power in this universe. But life always changes. I'm going to hold onto that thought.
Boy this update took a turn I didn't think it would take xD
Anyway, I'm ok. Just letting my mind wander in the post I suppose, heh. Keep it real guys, let's stay strong together.
Take care~
- Anibo
